I could never say enough, Owner, dearest friend, to thank you for the love you gave to me, until the end.
I’m sorry that I hurt you by saying my goodbye. You gave me such a happy home, I lived a happy life. I leapt and played and laughed in ways you maybe couldn’t see. Of all the pets you might have loved, I’m glad that you chose me.
It’s okay to miss me, for I miss you too.
It’s okay to bow your head and cry if you have to.
However hard it seems today, your dear sweet heart will heal.
For now, my friend, remember me and feel what you must feel. But don’t give up on loving, Owner, dearest friend. Although the cost is oh so high, it’s worth it in the end — to know that you made this pet’s life the best one it could be. It should be no mystery why you meant the world to me.
So here’s my final word, my friend, this is my last wish: Find another lonely pet, then give to them my dish. And every time they make you smile, know that I’m smiling too, still so proud to once have been a dearest friend to you.
Love, always.”
A year ago this morning, I was awoken to one of the most terrible phone calls of my life. My little Diego, who had been in the hospital for three days, was under cardiac arrest, and the vet was calling to see if I wanted them to revive him. Before I could even process what they were saying to me, I heard the woman on the other line say, as clear as day...
Oh, I'm so sorry. He just passed.
He was barely nine years old. It was a snowy morning, one that I will never forget. As with the passing of any loved one, I mourned the loss of my cute little fluffy monster, and I watched with great heartbreak the broken heart of Dylan, the brother who he'd left behind. For months, Dylanito was so sad, and every interaction with him only made me feel sadder for myself, and even more so for him. As they say, time heals all wounds, and this is very true. Though it took awhile, Dylan and I have both healed from Diego's loss. I eventually got used to having only one little kitty around the house, and he got used to being the only kitty around.
I sometimes wonder if Dylan even remembers Diego. I have no idea how a cat's mind works. Every once in awhile I'll say his name aloud to see if there's any recognition in my little, eleven-toed panther, but there is none. That's a good thing, I guess. He's definitely been over his mourning period for months now, and that helped me get out of mine...but I will always remember my sweet little sunshine.
A few weeks after Diego had passed, my mother sent me the following poem above. In times of sadness, it brought out the tears that helped release the pain. I wanted to share it here in case any pet owner out there has the need to hear it too.
It's hard to believe it's been a year already. I haven't thought much of him lately, but Diego will be in my mind all day today, and Dylan will get a little extra loving, too! Here's the recitation of the poem, Owner, Dearest Friend, by Vivian Matthews:
