Tuesday, August 2, 2011

August 2, 2011 - WTF

Well, that new attitude I had been working on earlier in the year has totally gone by the wayside. I’m having one of those days where I’m kinda sorta throwing myself a pity party, yet spending lots of time as well not thinking about things, trying to be oblivious to my situation on purpose. In case you haven’t read my latest on Y!CN, you haven’t heard my latest trouble, one which I should have been expecting, but really wasn’t.

To make a long story short, yesterday I was presented with something that seemingly will force my hand in making a move before I really wanted to. You can read it in the piece here, but basically I have two options as far as the bank is concerned: either pay up about five grand before September 1st or my mortgage payment goes up by about $400 a month starting the same time, neither of which I can do. WTF???

So now I face a new, potentially life-changing dilemma. For the past 24 hours I’ve been going from being really pissed off to suicidal to thinking that maybe in the long run things will work out better for me. I have no idea what’s going to happen, but I do know I’ve got some phone calls to make and a lot of figuring out to do. Stay tuned…and in the meantime here’s a little video to show how I’m feeling. I’ve played it before, but it so fits sometimes…


  1. I can't leave without saying something, just to let you know I was here. I don't have any words of wisdom, nothing to make you feel better, nothing to change the situation. Just wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts and I, too, hope it will all work out. Ride out the storm, John. *hugs*

  2. John, Heaven couldn't handle you. Seriously, remove all of those thoughts from your head - death is a dead-end and you still have a journey ahead of you. It's only "stuff" and you're so much more than that. If they take your house, your stuff, even your money - you'll still be you. I'm sending you my love - so your not broke. I don't give away my love to just anyone either! You're one of the richest guys I know right now :) Smile, it's a journey, remember that. My love is lifting you, so cheers! (michele starkey)

  3. Aw guys..thanks for the love! I know I will get through it somehow, and I hope neither of you took this entry the wrong way....I just have a lot of stuff on my mind, of course, and it's kind of scary, but I know that there's a better place for me just ahead...I've just got to live through this, ya know? Thanks and big hugs to both of you!